‘If you counted me out, You can’t count’ ~ anonymous

October 15th 2020

Pre Op

5:30 am

To make a loooonnng story short, I survived a nine hour surgery, to have a 30lb Ovarian Cyst removed. Oh yeah, and a Hysterectomy. A 30lb Ovarian Cyst removed, And a hysterectomy!? God got jokes.

Anything having to do with my Ovaries, at my age, is quite amusing to me.

I’m sure not as amused as Sarah, when God told her she was going to have a baby.

In her 90’s.

Scripture says she laughed to herself, and said ‘ how could a worn-out woman like me enjoy such pleasure, especially when my husband is old too’ ~ Gen. 18:12 ~ NLT

God got jokes.

The Scan showed, on the Cyst, what appeared to be ‘calcium deposits’ the doctor concluded. Which left him suspicious of possible Cancer, so on to the team of Oncologists I went. Some of the best The University Of Chicago had to offer. Wow was I Favored! A young, diverse team of male and female Cancer Professionals.

‘Where no counsel is, the people fall; But in the multitude of counsellors there is safety’ ~ Prov. 11:14

My surgeon was a woman Gynecologist, specializing in Cancer. I requested a female doctor. Not being sexist of course, but feeling more comfortable and safe with a woman. I would imagine, for obvious reasons.

The weight loss could’ve been the most distressing. I lost a lot of weight. Yet throughout a whole year of realizing something ‘abnormal’ was going on in my body, God kept me in perfect peace.

Oncologist’s job is to find cancer, and they were looking for malignancy.

Real hard.

CT Scan, Ultra Sounds, Blood Tests, (one cancer marker scored high) ~ Colonoscopy, and Endoscopy.

Oh yeah, and 3 covid-19 tests.

Come time for the surgery, I was ready. Ok, Let’s do this God! It’s All or Nothing now.

I was tired of carrying around an Ovarian cyst, the size of three, 10lb babies. Live or die, I was ready.

I survived. A 9hr surgery. ~ Recovering miraculously.

Oh yeah …

and they found No cancer.

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CAUTION:

wear your hard hat entering my personal zone
i’m now under construction

much demolition and major renovations

tearing down internal walls and breaking through

decades of compartmentalized outdated emotional stuff

It takes courage to grow up and become
Who you really are ~
E.E.Cummings

hammering at the plaster of fears and insecurities
a maze of dim hallways leading to familiar areas
with hoarded collections of faded memorabilia
clusters of cluttered and discolored memories
image

i’m reinventing myself into someone spacious
and modern ~ more contemporary less structured

less walls ~ less doors

so many more ceiling to floor
sunny bay windows with nautical cool breezes
spritzing my spirit and splashing my soul

You must learn a new way to think before
you can master a new way to be ~
Marianne Williamson

becoming the me of myself
i never was ~ yet have always been

i am wiser and a little smarter since yesterday

no not this super-glued put back together repaired me

the brand new me!

completely remodeled …

inside

Never be afraid to fall apart
because it is an opportunity to rebuild yourself
the way you wish you had been all along ~
Rae Smith

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